I have 11 hours and 29 minutes before the first of my children is up and headed out the door for the first day back-to-school post the Thanksgiving Holiday break! Oh, how I’ve enjoyed having all four of my Loves at home with me for such as extended period of time, but oh how ready I am to see them back into their daily routine of rushing out the door, thus slamming it behind them, in an effort to not miss the schoolbuses! Even more, I’m looking forward to standing out on the balcony, at the end of the school day, to greet them when the schoolbuses drop them back off, to me! =)
……now make that 11 hours and 21 minutes!
Monthly Archives: November 2011
So I had this cute little blog post that I’d compiled yesterday, for yesterday, seeing that it was the “official day” of giving thanks. Yet, my abilities to post it were prohibited by some ridiculous technical internet issue. Eventually I just trashed that piece and figured that I’d write a new and completely different post. Well, we survived our first Thanksgiving away from my mom and the rest of the family. Admittedly, I got a little emotional here and there. The emotions more so came flooding in as I mixed up the dressing. Usually my mom mixes and fixes the dressing. It was my first time doing it, and that made me miss her and our “old” home! Once all of the food was ready, I quickly took pictures and posted some to Twitter and sent some to the family, before we dug in to stuff our faces! We neglected to spend any isolated time explaining what we were thankful for because we’d been doing it ALL day, and I always see to it that we express gratitude on a daily basis anyway!
As we ate and marveled over how good all of the food was, we soon forgot about not being back in Michigan, with all of our family. We all started harping on the fact that we’d accomplished a goal that I’d long ago set out for us, moving to Texas! Being able to complete a task from start to finish became the topic of our conversation. Moving to Texas was the first goal that we all devised together, and it’s the first goal that we conquered! That there alone is more than enough to be thankful for!
I hope everyone has something to be just as THANKful for!
The Dyson Clan
Last night while talking on the phone to my mom she asked, “So how’s everything going down there?” I replied, “Everything is good. We’re all inside now! Just winding down!” I could tell that the wheels in her head were just’a spinning away. So I asked her, “Why? What’s up?” She answered, “Oh nothing. Where’s Mario?” It was then that my suspicions were confirmed. He’d mentioned earlier that he’d phoned her. He must’ve said something to her about something, and that something had her thinking, and she wanted to see what she could get out of me, without directly asking me first! I finally just asked, “What did he say when he called you?” She answered, “He asked if could he come back here.”
Admittedly, I was a bit caught off guard and my feelings were just a wee bit hurt. Mainly because he and I had just been chitchatting and he made no mention of wanting to go back to our previous home. Plus, he thought better of calling my mom, his grandma, whose nearly fourteen hundred miles away, while I was sitting there in the same space as he.
Once the phone call with my mom ended I immediately went in on my oldest son. I nonchalantly suggested several different people and places that he could call, to see if they’d give him a place to stay back in Detroit. After relaying my list of potential boarders to him, I removed myself from the space that we shared and I went to be by myself. I needed to be solo and in my own space. I needed to think, ponder and rationalize all the things running through my head.
After my alone time, I came to the realization that I’m doing my very best. In fact, I’m doing better than my best! None of my children have any logical reason to be unhappy. I have picked up and left everything that I’ve ever known behind, in order to give my children the best possible chance at succeeding. I’ve moved them from a place of mass uncertainty to a place that has all the opportunity in the world. They go to schools in the top school district, they’re playing instruments, they’re in ALL the extracurricular activities that they wanted to be in, they have new friends, we have new transportation, we basically live on a resort — we can go outside and feel absolutely safe and comfortable. There aren’t any gun shots ringing out, there aren’t any drug addicts, drug dealers, abandoned or dilapidated houses. We’re not worried about break-ins when we leave our home. We are surrounded by beauty and peace! Truthfully it costs me way more to live down here than it did in Detroit, so from a financial standpoint, and if this move were all about me, I’d still be in Detroit. But to have the peace of mind that I do when any of them leave out the front door; to have access to this education and all the opportunity that comes with being enrolled in nationally recognized schools; to have this comfort, to be this at ease, to be this happy, to live…and to live this quality of life, I’d spend every red cent, every single month, without any hesitation! Sacrifices are what mothers make each and every single day, and I’m no different.
Every decision that I’ve made, I’ve made with my children’s best intentions in mind. I know that I have and I continue to give my very best, so that each of my children will reach their very best, and for that I will never feel guilty!
Soon he’ll completely understand
I’m no expert, but there are just certain things that I know, and there are just certain things that make sense. With that being said, “You are who you want to be!” If you’re in a bad place, then that’s where you’re choosing to be! If you’re happy, then you choose to be there! If you’re a victim, then that’s who you want to be! People who are fuel, they fuel their happiness with things and/or beings that make them happy! This applies to what and whom ever! I always say, give Life to the things that you want, while smothering the things that you don’t! Focus your thoughts on what you want, give no life, no thought to want you don’t want!
What brought about this post? Well, I was just showing some love to the blogs that I’m subscribed to, and one in particular focuses an exuberant amount of time on grieving, being sad, death, sickness and all that jazz, and after reading all the different titles made by this blogger it just did something to my spirit! My spirit required that I rebuke all of those lifeless and unhappy things. Then it came to me, that this is how way too many think and “live” their lives! I want to be informative because I’m sure someone can you this bit of advice!
P.S. Don’t get me wrong. Death is real, it’s permanent, it’s sad and I’m not saying to grieve when death presents itself in your life. I’m just advising that you don’t let it consume you. Don’t allow it to strip you of your life, here on earth. Do your loved ones that aren’t here a favor, LIVE! Live for yourself and live for them (if that’s even possible). Don’t make your life all about their death! Remember them and their good! That’s what you want to give life to….not their death!
PEACE and many, many Blessings!
Good thing about the Living is that you have another opportunity!