I reached my mid-30’s sixty-five days ago exactly and I have a feeling of lostness that I’ve never felt before, not even in my younger adolescent years! I’m questioning everything. Am I a good mother? Did I make a mistake moving, and moving so far away? Should I move back home?
I’m starting things and I’m not finishing them. My book is the prime example of that. My mind is running a hundred miles an hour. That’s probably why I’m unable to contribute anything significant to my novel! I’m not even finishing any of the complete thoughts that our loitering about my head. I’ve never felt like this before and I have no idea of how I should deal with it.
My mind is cluttered. My car is cluttered. My bedroom and closet are in a total disarray. My purse is quite empty, too! The only stuff I carry around in there are things that are quite insignificant! All of these things are a direct reflection of my life and my mind. I’m truly wondering if I’ve somehow grown into being ADD. Is that possible? Lately, I’ve been hearing a lot about Adult ADD. Self diagnosing: I have all of the symptoms! YIKES!
I’ve been the epitome of health my entire life, and I sure don’t want that to change now! My gut is trying to tell me one thing, but I can’t (or don’t want to) focus long enough to look into the matter with my doctor!
I guess what I’m hoping is that I’m just still going through the rough transitional phase of relocating, as well as the stress of raising three of my four children completely on my own. I just want to be told that I’m overwhelmed and that all of this madness will soon pass. This is my last attempt to make some sense of what’s going on with me, before getting a medical diagnoses. Any thoughts? Suggestions? Similar experiences? Please share.